Lately I have been doing a lot of soul searching…for a lack of a better term. It started this past summer, thanks to a something called “Awakening The Spark”, a class I took through The (Amazing) Define School. I struggle right now to find the right words to express how I have felt, thought and changed, since this class. I wanted to kick start my creativity again, which it did, but I got so much more. Even John, who was by my side through all the lessons, started to think differently.
As most artists know, trying to balance life and your craft can be difficult. It’s been a struggle to stay true to myself and to try and get more paying photography jobs. I have beaten myself up for not getting myself out there to get more work, for not blogging enough, for not facebooking enough, for not coming up with cool branding or networking with the photographers I admire in CT. What I have been doing though, is learning and growing not only as a photographer, but as a person. I may have not blogged everything I’ve shot this year, but SO WHAT. I have been out there, I’ve been paying attention, I’ve been discovering and I have been seeing what is important and THAT to me, is more powerful. I have this talent and I can keep it for myself, so certain things stay personal and sacred, I can share it with my family- THE most important thing in my life, OR I can choose to share somethings publicly on this blog, for those who check it out.
It’s the end of the year and I am reflecting. I haven’t written anything too personal before, but for whatever reason I am right now. It’s important to slow down and take it all in. It’s important to love yourself. It’s important to love others, share your light and be GRATEFUL for what you have.
Today, John and I got outside, we bundled up and took a walk through a park, in the falling snow. We wanted to get out of the house, away from all the “stuff”. It was beautiful and quiet and peaceful. Just what we needed.